Faces!

During this Infertility Journey I have meet some wonderful people over the net. Some people I have been in contact with for short periods of time and some a little longer. But the strange thing is,  some of them I have never even seen their faces. I of course have invented images in my head of what they look like and after later seeing some photo's those images changed. But I still visilise them in my head.

As you may or may not be aware, I'm one of the anti-FB people. It's not that I care if people are on. (My Hubby is.) I'm just not interested and I do see a lot of trouble that it causes. See I am a very open person in life. If someone asked if we have kids. I tell them the whole story. (The short version) I don't have secrets and I always try to be truthful. Therefore I feel that FB and me wouldn't get along. Hubby never write anything serious and not too offen. He normally writes movie quotes, song lines and if he does write something personal, it's only something special. I on the other hand have never joined but I know if I did, I would end up saying something that I shouldn't had and not being able to take it back.

However I do sometimes feel this pull to join. Not to see peoples faces but to contact people that I was friends with in real life. I had a special friend who I knew for 3 years and now she is in the UK. We started emailing for the first few months then the time got longer and now it been months. I remember her asking me to join FB before she left, so we could keep in touch. I of course objected and now 1.5 years later. I feel I have lost the friendship. It may have happened anyway but I do wonder, If I had joined FB would it have changed things? I'm not the type of person to do something because my friends tell me too. That was what my hubby liked most about me in high school. I did what I wanted and not what my friends wanted. He respected that and I do too. So many people have begged me to join, everyone in my life under 40 and even my 54 year old mum has one. So why don't I want to join. Am I just being stubborn and don't want to give in to the pressure and say I was wrong. Or is it just another thing I don't need in my life.

I guess the internet scares me sometimes. I worry if I paste a photo on the net that it could be photo shopped or my words changed. I feel comfort in being an ANYBODY on here. I'm know as Jill (which is my real name, well Jillian but everyone calls me Jill) But I can be anyone and say anything. No one in my real life know about this blog. (Except Hubby but he doesn't read it.) I have freedom and you know what.........I love it.